Struggling With The Wind
I've been in bed most of the day, just not really feeling so well. There are a few things going on that I probably need to get off my chest. The first being, some dear blogger friends little boy, Caemon passed on to the next world. He had leukemia and put up such an amazing fight. It's been really hard for me as he was born right after my little papaya and I've followed their blog for the past 3+years. I was always a lurker, but I am the kind of lurker that really gets invested in a blog. If I am going to spend time reading, it's because I feel a connection to you. Just thinking about how his parents are feeling right now has just left me at a loss. I can't imagine, and I just wanted to show them that even though I only knew them online, I am here to help. I just donated to their fund, they have a lot of planning and things they need to take care for their dear sweet boy.
A few days ago I started having some really bad headaches and overall felt exhausted. I imagine this is what it feels like to have Fibromyalgia - Everything just hurts. When this happens, I generally know it's because I haven't been taking care of myself. My dear client, (I am her Online Business Manager) gifted me a spa package for Christmas and I plan on using this in the next week or so ( when I feel better ) to really recharge my batteries.
When you run a business from home, it's so easy to let life take control of everything. There isn't anything wrong with that per say but it can, and will drain you. You really have to be aware of what's going on, and make sure you are giving yourself the rest you need in order to run your business.
This week I promise myself, more rest + more poetry + more self compassion + more worldly love.