When I woke up this morning I immediately grabbed my cup of warm green tea, splashed in a little blueberry juice and sat down at my desk. As I began checking my to do lists I had this amazing warm sensation just roll over my body. On my to do list I had a big giant note that said: "Happy 2 years since you dumped your full time job anniversary!" It also had a little note that said, "You've officially been an entrepreneur for over 4 years!" WOA, now that is something and let me tell you why.
You see the rumor is you don't really get to settle into your business until you've done it for 3 years of longer. This means it takes at least 3 years before things start to make sense and you are able to really KNOW how to make consistent money. I think this thought comes from the stats that say most businesses are not profitable for at least 3-5 years. Since my business has low overhead, this really isn't true but it had always been something in the back of my head. I've always made a profit, just not much of it. I always said If I could just make it to 4 years I would feel relief, and believe me I do.
Because of this, if you aren't in it for the long haul, you aren't going to make it. There were several times I really wanted to just let things go and walk away. I'd look at Indeed.com and hunt for jobs thinking, well this job HAS to be better than feeling like a failure. I realized a long time ago that that feeling that I had, about being a failure was self-induced. I hadn't failed and even more so I was a business that in the black every month. My problem was I had issues with doing icky thinks like marketing. I was also a workaholic who gets so wrapped up with what I'm learning while doing things, that I'd often not bill my clients. So I'd work 13 hour days and bill 3 hours. How was I expecting to survive through this?
For me, running a business has always been a competition with MYSELF. I am way way way NOT competitive against others but when it comes to challenging ME, I am all about it. Having the freedom of being an entrepreneur means I can easily, almost effortlessly yank myself out into the open. I'm an introvert who would hide under a bridge like a mushroom troll if I could, but running my business means I am out there and I doing something that matters to me.
I'll admit, that I have stretched myself in so many ways that I never thought possible. I know I shout a lot about getting to leave the cubicle farm and that being a main reason why I embarked on this adventure. The truth is, while that was important, it wasn't the top reason to do this. The top reason was because I've always had more potential than I gave myself credit for. I knew I could create a business that I would be proud of and that would satisfy my inner competitiveness with myself.